Excerpt from We Were Liars by E Lockhart, plus links to reviews, author biography & more

"I'm not sure I am, either," I said. "I'm winging it."

"Yeah." Gat was silent for a moment. "Do you believe in God?"

"Halfway." I tried to think about it seriously. I knew Gat wouldn't settle for a flippant answer. "When things are bad, I'll pray or imagine someone watching over me, listening. Like the first few days after my dad left, I thought about God. For protection. But the rest of the time, I'm trudging along in my everyday life. It's not even slightly spiritual."

"I don't believe anymore," Gat said. "That trip to India, the poverty. No God I can imagine would let that happen. Then I came home and started noticing it on the streets of New York. People sick and starving in one of the richest nations in the world. I just—I can't think that anyone's watching over those people. Which means no one is watching over me, either."

"That doesn't make you a bad person."

"My mother believes. She was raised Buddhist but goes to Methodist church now. She's not very happy with me." Gat hardly ever talked about his mother.

"You can't believe just because she tells you to," I said. "No. The question is: how to be a good person if I don't believe anymore."

We stared at the sky. The dogs went into Windemere via the dog flap.

"You're cold," Gat said. "Let me give you my jacket." I wasn't cold but I sat up. He sat up, too. Unbuttoned his olive hunting jacket and shrugged it off. Handed it to me. It was warm from his body. Much too wide across the shoulders. His arms were bare now.

I wanted to kiss him there while I was wearing his hunting jacket. But I didn't.

Maybe he loved Raquel. Those photos on his phone. That dried beach rose in an envelope.

9

AT BREAKFAST THE next morning, Mummy asked me to go through Dad's things in the Windemere attic and take what I wanted. She would get rid of the rest.

Windemere is gabled and angular. Two of the five bedrooms have slanted roofs, and it's the only house on the island with a full attic. There's a big porch and a modern kitchen, updated with marble countertops that look a little out of place. The rooms are airy and filled with dogs.

Gat and I climbed up to the attic with glass bottles of iced tea and sat on the floor. The room smelled like wood. A square of light glowed through from the window.

We had been in the attic before.

Also, we had never been in the attic before. The books were Dad's vacation reading. All sports memoirs, cozy mysteries, and rock star tell-alls by old people I'd never heard of. Gat wasn't really looking. He was sorting the books by color. A red pile, a blue, brown, white, yellow.

"Don't you want anything to read?" I asked.

"Maybe."

"How about First Base and Way Beyond?" Gat laughed. Shook his head. Straightened his blue pile. "Rock On with My Bad Self? Hero of the Dance Floor?"

He was laughing again. Then serious. "Cadence?"

"What?"

"Shut up."

I let myself look at him a long time. Every curve of his face was familiar, and also, I had never seen him before.

Gat smiled. Shining. Bashful. He got to his knees, kicking over his colorful book piles in the process. He reached out and stroked my hair. "I love you, Cady. I mean it."

I leaned in and kissed him.

He touched my face. Ran his hand down my neck and along my collarbone. The light from the attic window shone down on us. Our kiss was electric and soft,

and tentative and certain,

terrifying and exactly right.

I felt the love rush from me to Gat and from Gat to me.

We were warm and shivering,

and young and ancient,

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