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A Novel
by Kristin Hannah
After that day, she collected artifacts from her life. School pictures,
sports pictures, movie ticket stubs. For years whenever she had a good
day, she hurried home and wrote about it, pasting down whatever receipt
or ticket proved where she had been or what she'd done. Somewhere
along the way she started adding little embellishments to make
herself look better. They weren't lies, really, just exaggerations. Anything
that would make her mom someday say she was proud of her. She filled
that scrapbook and then another and another. On every birthday, she
received a brand-new book, until she moved into the teen years.
Something happened to her then. She wasn't sure what it was, maybe
the breasts that grew faster than anyone else's, or maybe it was just that
she got tired of putting her life down on pieces of paper no one ever
asked to see. By fourteen, she was done. She put all her little-girl books
in a big cardboard box and shoved them to the back of her closet, and
she asked Gran not to buy her any more.
"Are you sure, honey?"
"Yeah," had been her answer. She didn't care about her mother anymore
and tried never to think about her. In fact, at school, she told
everyone that her mom had died in a boating accident.
The lie freed her. She quit buying her clothes in the little-girls
departments and spent her time in the juniors area. She bought tight,
midriff-baring shirts that showed off her new boobs and low-rise bellbottoms
that made her butt look good. She had to hide these clothes
from Gran, but it was easy to do; a puffy down vest and a quick wave
could get her out of the house in whatever she wanted to wear.
She learned that if she dressed carefully and acted a certain way, the
cool kids wanted to hang out with her. On Friday and Saturday nights,
she told Gran she was staying at a friend's house and went roller-skating
at Lake Hills, where no one ever asked about her family or looked at her as if she were "poor Tully." She learned to smoke cigarettes without coughing and to chew gum to camouflage the smell on her breath. By eighth grade, she was one of the most popular girl in junior high, and it helped, having all those friends. When she was busy enough, she didn't think about the woman who didn't want her.
On rare days she still felt . . . not quite lonely . . . but something.
Adrift, maybe. As if all the people she hung around with were placeholders.
Today was one of those days. She sat in her regular seat on the
school bus, hearing the buzz of gossip go on around her. Everyone
seemed to be talking about family things; she had nothing to add to the
conversations. She knew nothing about fighting with your little brother
or being grounded for talking back to your parents or going to the mall
with your mom. Thankfully, when the bus pulled up to her stop, she
hurried off, making a big show of saying goodbye to her friends, laughing
loudly and waving. Pretending; she did a lot of that lately.
After the bus drove away, she repositioned her backpack over her
shoulder and started the long walk home. She had just turned the corner
when she saw it.
There, parked across the street, in front of Gran's house, was a beatup red VW bus. The flower decals were still on the side.
Excerpted from Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah. Copyright © 2008 by Kristin Hannah. Excerpted by permission of St. Martin's Press. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
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