It's amazing how timely this issue is right now in America. Placidia felt close to and admired her father, and idealized her understanding of her parents' relationship. She was in shock to discover what had really happened -- and later to make the connection between Nolan's forcing himself on a slave at his sister's wedding, her own father's abuse of his white male privilege, and her own rape. Up till then, she had thought of rape as something women had to fear only from slaves or from ignorant, lower class white men, like those pretending to be soldiers who invaded her farm. She was able to disapprove but largely ignore what "genteel" white men were doing to female slaves. To realize that this was an evil built right into the system that her own family lived by, something her own father had done, was first a shock to her understanding, and then a trauma, when her own rape made her realize what it had been like for the slave woman who was Achilles's mother. We can infer from her naming and her raising of her son Achilles, his memory of her wanting to create a better world, that she fully accepted the slave Achilles as a brother. In gratitude for his effort to protect her from Nolan, and all that followed, she was prepared to sacrifice the man she loved, her reputation and her life, rather than betray him back into slavery. I think there was a part of her that never forgave her father, and that is what led her to preserve her diary, the sole record of her father's abuse as well as her enslaved brother's heroism. On some level, she wanted to set straight the historical record, to speak truth to power.