I didn't feel like she ever really did make sense of violence in the Civil War. I perceived a sense of confusion, not understanding how this was happening. There seemed almost a disbelief that all of the sudden the clan that you belonged to would either keep you alive or kill you. At one point, Sahl wrote, " Despite these reports, the violence still seemed disconnected from our daily life." (pg. 192) Until it wasn't. And even then, she believed her flight would be temporary- -that her family would return to their home when the fighting was over. I would be interested in hearing more about this from Sahl as an adult. She provided her memories within the pages of the book- -the memories of a teenager. I'm sure this is a time in her life she has examined more closely as a grown woman, and I would be curious to know her thoughts more deeply. I can only imagine how traumatic this was. Perhaps it was the shock that kept her from reacting in a way I think I might. Having the time with her grandmother in the desert, Sahl knew not to sit around asking questions or searching for answers. Staying alive meant moving.