In the early days of her mother’s cancer treatment, Michelle was convinced that with a healthy diet of the Korean food Chongmi loved, she would grow stronger, be able to minimize the effects of the poisonous chemo, and if not achieve total cure, at least be able to enjoy her final months and years traveling and being with the people she loved. Her desire to provide this healing was further incentivized by her guilt at having been a selfish and self-loving daughter during her teen years and beyond. But her drive to please and heal her mother—to prove the depth of her love, is frustrated by her limited experience in preparing the dishes her mother longs for. The installation of Kye, Chongmi’s longtime Korean friend, in the Zauner household seems the perfect solution…at first.
But instead of helping Michelle fulfill her desire, Kye quickly becomes the obstacle in her path. Envisioning Kye as a mentor who would teach her how to cook the food her mother loves, Michelle asks Kye to let her help with the food preparation so she could learn. But Kye rebuffs the offer countering with her own suggestion that Michelle should cook for herself and her father and leave Kye free to focus solely on her mother. Nor was the intruder happy with driving a wedge between mother and daughter; she also made Michelle feel like an outsider, an American/Korean hybrid who did not fit in. This comes to a head in the incident of the undercooked egg. After Michelle explains her concern about feeding this questionable dish to her immune compromised mother, Kye settles the issue with a firm, “This is how we eat this one in Korea.” End of argument. But Kye’s insistence that she knew better also implied, ‘You wouldn’t understand. You’re not Korean.” And Michelle recognizes a new twist to her desire to heal and show love to her mom. For the first time in her life, the desire to be seen and accepted as Korean trumps the desire to be seen and accepted as American.
Kye saw her role as manger of her friend’s health and happiness, but that put her in conflict with Michelle whose strength triumphed over the would-be usurper, and Kye packs her bags to return to her unhappy home life. It is also important that instead of gloating over her victory, Zauner tries to understand her mother’s love for Kye and includes the story she shares of her friend’s unhappy and loveless life. It is telling of the author’s growing sensitivity and maturity that she recounts this background which softens the image of Kye as a cruel tyrant.