Excerpt of Rock Paper Tiger by Lisa Brackmann
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“Ah. The usual,” he says.
“Want some company?”
Lao Zhang hesitates.
It’s a little weird. I can’t think of a time when I’ve called that
he hasn’t invited me over. Even times when I don’t want to leave
my apartment, when I just want to hear a friendly voice, he’ll
always try and talk me into coming out; and sometimes when I
won’t, he’ll show up at my door a couple hours later with takeout
and cold Yanjing beer. He’s that kind of person. He works
hard, but he likes hanging out too, as long as you don’t mind
him working part of the time. And I don’t. A lot of times I’ll sit
on the sagging couch in his studio while he paints, listening to
my iPhone, drinking beer, surfing on his computer. I like watching
him paint too, the way he moves, relaxed but in control. It
feels comfortable, him painting, me sitting there.
“Sure,” he finally says. “Why don’t you come over?”
“You sure you’re not too busy?”
“No, come over. There’s a performance tonight at the Warehouse.
Should be fun. Call me when you’re close.”
Maybe I shouldn’t go, I think, as I swipe my yikatong card at
the Wudaokou light rail station. Maybe he’s seeing somebody
else. It’s not like we’re a couple. Even if it feels like we are one
Sure, we hang out. Occasionally fuck. But he could do a lot
better than me.
“Lao” means “old,” but Lao Zhang’s not really old. He’s
maybe thirteen, fourteen years older than I am, around forty.
They call him “Lao” Zhang to distinguish him from the other
Zhang, who’s barely out of his teens and is therefore “Xiao”
Zhang, also an artist at Mati Village, the northern suburb of
Beijing where Lao Zhang lives.
Before I came to China, I’d hear “suburb” and think tract
homes and Wal-Marts. Well, they have Wal-Marts in Beijing and
housing tracts—Western-style, split-level, three bedroom, two
bath houses with lawns and everything, surrounded by gates and
walls. Places with names like “Orange County” and “Yosemite
Falls,” plus my personal favorite, “Merlin Champagne Town.”
But Mati Village isn’t like that.
Getting to Mati Village is kind of a pain. It’s out past the 6th
Ring Road, and you can’t get all the way there by subway or light
rail, even with all the lines they built for the ’08 Olympics. From
Haidian, I have to take the light rail and transfer to a bus.
It’s not too crazy a day. The yellow loess dust has been
drowning Beijing like some sort of pneumonia in the city’s
lungs, typical for spring in spite of all those trees the government’s
planted in Inner Mongolia the last dozen years. The dust
storms died down last night, but people still aren’t venturing
out much. So I score a seat on the bench by the car door, let
the train’s rhythms rattle my head. I close my eyes and listen to
the recorded announcement of the stations, plus that warning to
“watch your belongings and prepare well” if you are planning
to exit. All around me, cell phones chime and sing, extra-loud so
the people plugged into iPods can still hear them.
The nongmin don’t have iPods. The migrants from the countryside
are easy to spot: tanned, burned faces; bulging nylon net
bags with faded stripes; patched cast-off clothes; strange, stiff
shoes. But it’s the look on their faces that really gives them away.
They are so lost. I fit in better here than they do.
Sometimes I want to say to these kids, what are you doing
here? You’re going to end up living in a shantytown in a refrigerator
box, and for what? So you can pick through junked
computer parts for gold and copper wire? Do “foot massage” at
some chicken girl joint? Really, you’re better off staying home.
Like I’m one to talk. I didn’t stay home either.
Excerpted from Rock Paper Tiger
by Lisa Brackmann. Copyright © 2010 by Lisa Brackmann.
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