Excerpt of My Enemy's Cradle by Sara Young
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My aunt knelt to examine the wound, chiding her for her carelessness. Anneke
closed her eyes and tipped her head back; with her free hand she stroked the
hollow at the base of her throat with a contented smile. It was the look she
wore when she crept back into our room in the middle of the night . . . flushed
and deepened, rearranged.
I did not like Karl.
And then I knew.
"What have you done?" I whispered to her when my aunt left to fetch the
disinfectant and muslin.
"Later," she whispered back. "When everyone is asleep."
There was ironing and darning to do, and that night it seemed to take
forever. We listened to Hugo Wolf 's music on the phonograph while we did these
chores, and I wished for silence again because for the first time I could hear
how the tragedy of Wolf 's life flowed through his music. The beauty itself was
doomed. When my aunt said good night, Anneke and I exchanged looks and went
upstairs as well.
We washed quickly and put on our nightclothes. I couldn't wait another
moment. "Tell me now."
My cousin turned to me, and I'd never seen her smile so beautifully.
"A wonderful thing, Cyrla," she said, reaching down to stroke her belly.
The cut on her finger had begun to bleed again; the bandage was soaked
through. As she stood in front of me smiling and caressing her belly, a smear of
blood bloomed across the pale blue cotton of her nightgown.
"I'm leaving. I'm leaving here!" Now Anneke could hardly stop talking.
"We'll get married here, at the town hall I suppose. Karl's family lives outside
Hamburgmaybe we'll get a place there when the war is over, with a garden for
children, near a park, maybe. . . .Hamburg, Cyrla!"
"Shhhhhh!" I quieted her. "She'll hear." It wasn't my aunt we were careful
of, but Mrs. Bakker in the next house, which shared a wall with ours. She was
old and had nothing better to do with her days than spy on people and gossip
about what she'd learned. She sat in her front parlor all morning long and
watched the goings-on of Tielman Oemstraat through the two mirrors attached to
her windows. We knew from her coughing that her bedroom was next to ours, and we
didn't think it would be beneath her to hold a glass to the wall. But I didn't
really care about Mrs. Bakker at all. I wanted to stop Anneke's words.
I unwrapped her finger and cleaned it with water from the wash pitcher.
"Change your nightgown. I'll go downstairs for more bandages." Out in the hall,
I made myself breathe calmly again. I gathered the muslin strips, and also a cup
of milk and a plate of spekulaasAnneke had hardly eaten at supper, but she
loved the little spice cookies she smuggled home from the bakery. If I
distracted her, I wouldn't have to hear her plans. And if she saw how much she
needed me, she might understand that it was a mistake to leave. It was always a
mistake to leave.
We sat on her bed and I dressed her finger; I couldn't look into her
face although I felt her studying mine. "Are you sure? And how did this even . .
. weren't you careful . . . ?"
Anneke looked away. "These things happen." Then she broke into her
brilliant smile, the one that always disarmed me. "A baby . . . think of it!"
I wrapped my arms around her and laid my head on her chest, breathing in the
scent she brought home to us from the bakery each daybaked sugar, sweet and
warm, so perfectly suited to her. What scent clung to me, I wondered. Vinegar
from the pickling I'd been doing all week? Lye from the upholstery shop?
Anneke stroked the tears from my cheeks. "I'm sorry, Cyrla," she said.
"I'll miss you so much. More than anyone else."
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