Sammi told me shes going to the prom with Bob Patterson. I know I shouldnt be jealous but I am, not because I like Bob (actually I think hes kind of creepy), but because nobody asked me. Sometimes I think no one ever will. Ill spend the rest of my life sitting in front of my computer, posting messages about Brandon Erlich and his future in figure skating.
I told Megan about Sammi and how she always gets dates and she said, Well, the reason is theres always a man in Samantha, and after I got over being shocked I laughed. But then Megan spoiled it by becoming that new preachy Megan and she went on about how sex before marriage is a sin and how you shouldnt date just to go out with guys but because you were serious about making a lifetime commitment.
Im 16 years old. Let me get my learners permit first. Then Ill worry about lifetime commitments.
I went to bed in a bad mood and today everything just went worse.
At lunch today, Megan told Sammi she was going to go to hell if she didnt repent soon and Sammi got real mad (I dont blame her) and yelled at Megan that she was a very spiritual person and didnt need any lessons from Megan about what God wanted because she knew God wanted her to be happy and if God hadnt wanted people to have sex Hed have made everybody amoebas.
I thought that was pretty funny, but Megan didnt and the two of them really went at it.
I cant remember the last time the three of us had lunch together and enjoyed ourselves. When Becky was still healthy the four of us did everything together, and then after Becky got sick, we grew even closer. Megan or Sammi or I visited Becky at home or at the hospital almost every day, and called or e-mailed the others to say how Becky was doing. I dont think I could have made it through Beckys funeral without them. But ever since then Sammi and Megan both changed. Sammi started dating all kinds of guys and Megan got involved with her church. Theyve both changed so much over the past year and I seem to be staying who I always was.
Here I am going into my junior year of high school and these are supposed to be the best years of my life and Im just stuck.
But the real reason why Im in a bad mood is because I got into a big fight with Mom.
It started after supper. Jonny had gone into his room to finish his homework and Mom and I were loading the dishwasher, and Mom told me she and Dr. Elliott were going out for dinner tomorrow night.
There was this quick moment when I was jealous of Mom because even she has a social life, but it passed pretty fast. I like Dr. Elliott and Mom hasnt been involved with anybody in a while. Besides, its always smart to ask favors of Mom when shes in a good mood. So I did.
Mom, can I take skating lessons?
Just for the summer? she asked.
And next year, too, I said. If I feel like continuing.
After your ankle healed, you said you didnt want to skate again, Mom said.
The doctor said I shouldnt even try jumping for three months, I said. And by then there wasnt any point competing. So I stopped. But now Id like to skate just for fun. I thought you like it that I do sports.
I do like it, Mom said, but the way she slammed the dishwasher closed let me know she didnt like it nearly as much as I thought she did. But you have swimming and you were planning on trying out for the volleyball team in the fall. You cant handle three sports. Twos probably a stretch, especially if you want to work on the school paper.
Excerpted from Life As We Knew It by Susan Beth Pfeffer. Copyright © 2006 by Susan Beth Pfeffer. Excerpted by permission of Harcourt Trade Publishers. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
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