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Joyce Zamazanuk knew that her son was dying. She knew it when
the nurses quietly wheeled Jim to a private room on the seventh
ﬂoor of the hospital in San Diego. His new room had a bed, a
metal chair, and an oxygen tube, but little else. Outside, few
visitors wandered the halls. A hush hung over the nursing
station. Joyce thought, This must be where they bring the
sick patients to die.
Six days in the hospital had done little to help Jim. AIDS had
ravaged his body. The tumor that engulfed his lungs appeared
larger in each new CAT scan. Always slender, Jim Farrelly,
forty-ﬁve, was now reedlike beneath the cotton sheets and
blankets. His thick brown hair had thinned to a soft, downy fur.
He had trouble talking. Death by asphyxiation was certain.
Joyce wondered what awaited her beloved son: Would he feel pain
in the moment of his passing? How much longer before he left
Joyce had been just seventeen years old when Jim, her third son,
was born; the two had always been close. Even as a baby, Jim was
gentle in his manners and feminine in his tastes. He wanted to
do whatever his mother did. Unlike his macho brothers, Jim would
learn to cook and to sew. Later, when his sister was born, he
styled her hair and embroidered flowers on her clothing. At
school, the other children called him all the usual names: sissy
and mama's boy.
But Jim was a scrapper, tougher, his mother always said, than
any of his tough brothers. When they lost Jim's father, it was
Jim who stepped in and took care of Joyce. Jim planned his
father's funeral. He bought the Christmas presents. He was a
comfort to his mother. When he grew up and settled in San Diego,
Joyce often came to stay. She and Jim shared their sorrows and
AIDS was one secret Jim had tried to keep. When he was diagnosed
with HIV in 1994, he lied to his mother and said, "The doctor
just found a polyp. Nothing for you to worry about." Joyce was
relieved. But within a year, the virus had progressed to
Jim tried to prepare his family for his death. He knew it was
coming he'd seen many of his friends die and so he made sure
everything was ready. With the little money that he had, he
bought a cemetery plot in Arizona. He drew up a will and
arranged to be cremated through a funeral home in San Diego.
With his debts paid and his last wishes clear, Jim assured his
mother there was nothing more to worry about.
The end came quickly. Jim had only been on the seventh ﬂoor for
six or seven hours when he began making a guttural, gasping
sound. By now, everyone had arrived: Jim's sister, Joy; his best
friend, Billy, and countless others. Startled, they rushed to
"What is it, Jim?" his mother asked.
"Can I help you? You're not crying. Please don't cry."
Jim shook his head. He was laughing. "It's okay, Mom," he
whispered. "I am less and less. There is more and more." Then he
fell into a coma. Soon after, he was dead.
Everything went as planned. In the hospital room, Joyce said
good-bye to her son. After she went home, the nurses came and
took Jim's body down the long hall, into the freight elevator,
and downstairs to the morgue. Several weeks later, someone from
the mortuary called Joyce to say that Jim's ashes were ready. "Okay, send them along," Joyce replied. But when the urn
arrived, she didn't open it. She clutched it and placed it on
her shelf, where she gazed at it for weeks. Finally, she sent it
on to Tucson, where it was buried beside the urn of Jim's
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