Excerpt of Specimen Days by Michael Cunningham
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Walt said that the dead turned into grass, but there was no
grass where they'd buried Simon. He was with the other Irish on the far side of
the river, where it was only dirt and gravel and names on stones.
Catherine believed Simon had gone to heaven. She had a locket
with his picture and a bit of his hair inside.
"Heaven's the place for him," she said. "He was too good for
this world." She looked uncertainly out the parlor window and into the street,
as if she expected a glittering carriage to wheel along with Simon on board,
serene in his heedless milk-white beauty, waving and grinning, going gladly to
the place where he had always belonged.
"If you think so," Lucas answered. Catherine fingered the
locket. Her hands were tapered and precise. She could sew stitches too fine to
"And yet he's with us still," she said. "Don't you feel it?" She
worried the locket chain as if it were a rosary.
"I suppose so," Lucas said. Catherine thought Simon was in the
locket, and in heaven, and with them still. Lucas hoped she didn't expect him to
be happy about having so many Simons to contend with.
The guests had departed, and Lucas's father and mother had gone
to bed. It was only Lucas and Catherine in the parlor, with what had been left
behind. Empty plates, the rind of a ham. The ham had been meant for Catherine's
and Simon's wedding. It was lucky, then, to have it for the wake instead.
Lucas said, "I have heard what the talkers were talking, the
talk of the beginning and the end. But I do not talk of the beginning or the
He hadn't meant to speak as the book. He never did, but when he
was excited he couldn't help himself.
She said, "Oh, Lucas."
His heart fluttered and thumped against the bone.
"I worry for you," she said. "You're so young."
"I'm almost thirteen," he said.
"It's a terrible place. It's such hard work."
"I'm lucky. It's a kindness of them, to give me Simon's job."
"And no more school."
"I don't need school. I have Walt's book."
"You know the whole thing, don't you?"
"Oh no. There's much more, it will take me years."
"You must be careful at the works," she said. "You must" She
stopped speaking, though her face didn't change. She continued offering her
profile, which was as gravely beautiful as that of a woman on a coin. She
continued looking out at the street below, waiting for the heavenly entourage to
parade by with Simon up top, the pride of the family, a new prince of the dead.
Lucas said, "You must be careful, too."
"There's nothing for me to be careful about, my dear. For me
it's just tomorrow and the next day."
She slipped the locket chain back over her head. The locket
vanished into her dress. Lucas wanted to tell herwhat? He wanted to tell her
that he was inspired and vigilant and recklessly alone, that his body contained
his unsteady heart and something else, something he felt but could not describe:
porous and spiky, shifting with flecks of thought, with urge and memory; salted
with brightness, flickerings of white and green and pale gold, like stars;
something that loved stars because it was made of the same substance. He needed
to tell her it was impossible, it was unbearable, to be so continually mistaken
for a misshapen boy with a walleye and a pumpkin head and a habit of speaking in
He said, "I celebrate myself, and what I assume you shall
assume." It was not what he'd hoped to tell her.
Excerpt from Specimen Days by Michael Cunningham. Copyright © 2005 by Mare Vaporum Corp. Published June, 2005 by Farrar, Straus and Giroux, LLC. All rights reserved.