Excerpt of Lost In The Forest by Sue Miller
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Emily telephoned, his older daughter. "Can you come get us?" she said. "It's
As usual, she didn't greet him, she didn't say hello at the start of the
call. And also as usual, this bothered him, he felt a familiar pull of
irritation at her voice, her tone. But even as he was listening to her, he was
focused on steering the truck around the sharp curves in the narrow road, around
several small heaps of rock that had slid down the steep hillside: he was
feeling the pleasure he always took in the way the slanted afternoon light
played on the yellowed grass and reddened leaves left in the vineyards, in the
way the air smelled. He kept his voice neutral as he responded. "When? Now?"
In the background, behind her, Mark could hear someone give a sudden whoop.
Festivities, he thought. As ever. Eva's face rose in his mind--his ex-wife. At
the least excuse, there was a gathering at her house: to celebrate a
birthday--reasonable enough; but also for a project completed, a team victory, a
skill accomplished. You learned to ride a bike, you got a party thrown for you.
"Duh. Yes, Dad, now," Emily said. "That's what I mean."
He was headed north on 128 to a small vineyard he thought his crew should
harvest tomorrow. He needed to check the grapes. But he could probably get Angel
to do it if he had to. His windows were open. The noise of the rushing air made
his daughter's voice on the car phone sound distant.
"So?" she said. "Can you?"
If his younger daughter, Daisy, had ever called him because of an emergency,
it would have been a child's crisis--not making the basketball team, needing a
ride somewhere that her mother or stepfather couldn't provide. But with Emily,
this emergency was likely to be at least slightly serious, an emergency in
near-adult terms. Terms he might even be sympathetic with.
But she would be taking charge again, and this was something he and his
ex-wife had agreed that she should be discouraged--no, freed--from doing so
often. He cleared his throat. "Maybe I should talk to your mom," he said. Yes.
The approach to take.
"Dad!" she objected. He didn't answer for a long moment, and as if in
response to this, her voice had changed when she spoke again. She sounded
younger: "Mom can't talk right now. That's why we need you."
And with those words, we need you, it was settled. To be needed. Well. Mark
thought of Emily's delicate oval face, her regular, pretty features, her curly
dark hair, so like Eva's--all the things that were lovely about her. All the
things that didn't piss him off. "Okay," he said. "Okay, as it happens, I can
come. As it happens, I will."
She wouldn't be charmed. "Now?" she said impatiently.
"Now. Or, gimme ten or so." He was slowing, and as he pulled into a
turnaround by the roadside, the truck bounced and his tires crunched on the
"Okay." She sighed, in relief it seemed. "Just honk, though," she said.
"We'll come out. Oh, and Dad?"
"It's for overnight."
It could not be for overnight. He had plans. He had a date. He was going to
get laid. "Okay, sunshine," he said. "We'll work it all out."
She sighed again and hung up.
Twenty minutes or so later, when he pulled up at the curb in front of his
ex-wife's large Victorian house, the door opened before he hit the horn and his
younger daughter staggered out onto the wide porch, carrying her sleeping bag,
her pack an oversize hump on her back. Daisy was barefoot. Her long brown legs
were exposed nearly to the crotch in cutoff jeans--legs that were beginning to
look less like sticks and more like a woman's, he noted. Emily came out the door
after her, turned backward as if to fuss with something behind her.
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